Update on my world!!!

Well it has been a long last couple of weeks. Marks brother practically moved in and believe me he was not welcome by me!! he drove me crazy trashing the house and smelling up the place. After three whole weeks he is finally gone. Mark made him go before he really pissed me off. I have been working a lot well more than a lot actually. I pulled 45 extra hours this week and I am really beginning to wear down. I have to go back in here shortly but had to make at least this post since it has been awhile. I have started my online classes, yeah they are convienent but definately hard. I hope to get through them ok. I got my final grades for last semester and got all A's. I was extremely glad that my hard work paid off. I thought for sure I was getting a B in sociology but I was wrong.Sometimes it pays to be wrong. I can not wait for this weekend to be over...I am sooooooo tired. Oh yeah on my last day of winter term classes I got stranded about 35 miles from home because my fuel pump went out of my car. As if I have tie for that problem...NOT!!! I can not afford to fix it right now so i am using mark's truck for work since he isn't working yet. Will be soon it is starting to warm up now. Anyway i do not know how long it will hold but the transmission is going out of it. I tell ya when it rains at my feet it really storms. I am hoping to get another vehicle soon since the car was falling apart anyway, just have to wait until we can afford it though. Hoping soon.

Gone Gone Gone Crazy

Hey all yes I have completely gone crazy or at least that is how I'm feeling. I do not really wish to do anything because every little thing just sets me off inside and I am sure that I should not express myself at this time because it could be bad for my health and everyone else's. I get SO frustrated and I am not even sure why I am frustrated. Talk about confusing to my self!!! I wish I had a space i could go and just lock myself away and be completely alone with no worries and no one telling me to come out of my shell. Cuz damn it i wish to be in a shell. Hell it is the only place I can not get to. Yeah today is valentine's big whoop. We have no money to do anything for each other so it has turned out to be another day on the calender. My good friend Erin finally got her ring from her old man....about time. I am very excited for her that is if I could feel excited but I really feel nothing. I think that is bad when you feel nothing. Good thing no one passed away that I know because I would not feel anything anyway. That must sound horrible but it's how I am right now. oh well it's part of being me Bi Polar and fucked up. I wish I could work inside my mind to change whatever it is that causes this shitty feeling, cuz I would gladly give it to someone else or at least stop it from happening to me.

Busy with Life

Hey all-
it has been a crazy couple of weeks, I have been doing nothing besides work and school. Yeah I already know that is pathetic. But I will ahve a good paycheck coming up in a week and also school will be over for this semester anyway in another week also. then I will be home for school online and lovin every minute of it---I hope!!! I have never done an online class before so lets cross our fingers and hope I do well. I am disappointed with the last tgest I took in sociology and hope to pull my B to an A with the next and final test.. Still crossing fingers and toes on that one.hehe.

Entertianing Myself

Well so much for having to keep the kids busy and active inside the house due to the freezing wind, they have been so busy with themselves that I have gotten bored. They have played video games, watched movies, drew pictures, worked on their model cars, and played dress up all without me. I had the pleasure of cleaning the house for the largest part of the day and then watched a little television. I didn't even have to cook supper because they got to eat out. Well in actually- a good friend was sweet and brought them all McDonald's. They even had a friend over for the night. They are pleased with the day as for me I was basically bored after cleaning- which come on that is not a all together fun activity to begin with anyway.

I just thought this was such a cute picture of my cat hiding behind christmas presents. He was hiding from the dog I am assuming because at that time they were still not getting along. Thank Goodness they are having better luck being being in the same room. Took long enough!

Getting Ready For The Weekend

Well it is kiddie weekend time again, Yes I am excited. I have absolutely no idea what to do this weekend. It is going to be very cold- as in single digits. I am going to have to explain that two of their fish decided to go to fish heaven. I am not sure if the tank is big enough for four fish. Of course mark already made such a comment when I purchased them, and I will not admit it to him for I would never hear the end of it. So I am going to be stuck in the house for two days doing god knows what to keep the kids entertained, or freeze my ass off to go outside and play in the snow or ride bikes. We do not have much snow left- Thank God. Well I will post an update as the weekend progresses