6 wks

yup that is how far I am...well 6 weeks and 4 days to be exact as of the due date given so far. Hope to get an ultrasound scheduled after my first appointment with the doctor I have chosen. If he doesn't schedule me for one right away he may not end up being my doctor!!! I want to know where this baby is located because just because I am positively pregnant does not mean the fetus landed where he/she was supposed to. This could be a problem if not. I am hoping for good news and trying to take it easy as they say. I have had bad nausea the last couple of days so if this baby makes it my first guess is a boy. They always torture me....hehe. That would explain some of the bouts nof heartburn already too. Since I already have two boys and two girls I am not going to be chosey as if i really could anyway. I'm just waiting for news before I start to prepare. An we know I do not have patience for things like this. the waiting is driving me crazy. I am still just so amazed that i am pregnant, did not think in a million years this would be happening to me. They say everything happens for a reason.

I'm Pregnant

Yes you heard me I am pregnant. I had a tubal Ligation 6 years ago. I missed my period this month and today makes 13 days late. Decided for giggles I would get a test..... positive. Went to a different store and got a second test.....positive. The thing is I had that tubal and not sure baby be posibble.

Got 2nd cab!!!

Well the only good thing about having two dumbasses back into you, getting to get another vehicle. I was so irritated with the wrecks and focused on getting the car fixed. As of yet no repairs are actually done. I have gotten another vehicle to run as the cab. I got a plymouth Voyager. I am so happy it has the cd player. Really getting tired of the radio stations in this town. Always stuck listening to songs I don't care to ever hear again. So even though my repairs are not done a good has come of the o-town rejects!!! The Chevy Lumina still drives just as it always has, just looks crappy. Found the parts to do repairs so now just a matter of time. Hope to get Voyager ready (licensed, insured, decorated ) soon. Found the second driving also. Just been waiting on the state to finish his background check for me and then get his chauffers license taken care of under my company. That way i can get some time off here in the near future without having to miss a bun ch of calls. May go to the cuisino the weekend after get driver running!!!

On The lookout !!!!

Well after two people decided to make my car look like a real junker I am on the look out to purchase a new vehicle for my cab. I do intend to make all the repairs to my original cab but think it is definately time to have the second vehicle avaiable for just such occurences. I can not believe two people backed into me in the same week. Definately got some bad luck going on. I went to an automobile auction last night with jesse and found a few that I would like to have. just so happens they would not give my passengers any comfort. Unfortunately I have to take their comfort into consideration. That is if I want to have them as passengers..hehe. There's another car auction on Thursday, not sure if I will be able to attend but I am kind of hoping to. I would like to get another vehicle quickly then I can start working toward a vehicle for my personal use. Since I have a driver it will be nice to have double cars running at busy times but also when I want time off too. I would rather be driving around a vehicle of my choice for those far and in between times. A medium sized truck would be nice, or a mustang of course but that will not happen. I have always wanted one and had two some years ago,but that doesn't mean i will ever get one these days. I don't want want something too nice cuz kids will just tear it up. Kids seem to make keeping a vehicle clean almost impossible. They figure just riding along is their job. Forget taking their junk with them.

accident prone

Yup that has become me when I get in my car. Last Thursday i was driving people around and they wanted to go to the BP gas station. We get ready to leave pull behind a black truck to exit and the dumbass decides they want to go another direction. They don't even look behind them and just back right into me.URRRRRRRRRR. Then as if that wasn't bad enough damage (1300). Sunday roles around and i pull into the driveway of a customer and they just get in when another dumbass decides they are gonna back up through me. Yup. Got to go get estimate for that damage today. Auto places gonna be sick of seeing me. I sick of seeing them!!!!!

The Happy life feeling very far away today

I am sick and life just really sucks today. No one real big reason but an off day for sure. Been going in circles all day with different thoughts getting no where.....

Funny I thought I was the only one

Yup it has been confirmed I am not the only one that has fallen behind with her scrapbooks. I was so proud of myself when I had them all organized and looking great. Even figured out the dates for some that seemed a mystery. That is done and gone now. I am about a year or more behind with them now. I have boxes just stuffed with them all, talk about lost track yeah that's me. I lost track and haven't had the time to set down for the hours it will take to even get them organized by date let alone get them put into their books. Hope to make that an accomplishment here in the near future. At the rate I'm going it could take until next year to get last years done. Well guess I will have to get a little camera happy again too!!! Lost it there for a bit.

What do I want out of life???????

What I want out of life seems so simple to explain but hard to actually grasp. I want to live comfortably and in a family setting with the ones I love. It seems all so simple and yet I have not reached out and been able to grab a hold of this. WHY?????
I have a company that is making the money, I have a boyfriend that makes his own money.
I have four kids, I have a boyfriend with two kids--- The Brady Bunch.
I have nice things for my home, my boyfriend has what he describes as gangsta living accents.
I have NO actual home of my own, my boyfriend has two.
I love my kids and my boyfriend and his kids, he does the same.
So how is it with all the main ingredients I am not fully and truly happy yet???
This is what I am trying to ponder and fix whatever it is that needs to be fixed to have the life goal. I want the fairytale life and yet do not seem even close to realty with it.

It has come to my attention that I am a bitch in any and all ways the word can be used. I am fully ok with this because yes I am in fact a bitch. I do not take shit from others and if I do not like something I try to at least change it. I can be pushy, bossy, outspoken, hell even rude if necessary, but then who isn't. I am rough in the words of others- I come off as being rough anyway, well that maybe true but that is all I know. To watch out for yourself and your family first and foremost. I do that when it comes to me and my children. I can not say I give a 100 % with the boyfriend and his kids and that is because we do not have a family relationship yet(marriage), we are boyfriend and girlfriend and so there is a gap in the cover of extended family as of right now. Am i wrong for not just giving 100%????
I guess it would be the trust and depending on others that holds me back because I have not done those things in a very long time. Not sure if it will become 100%. I do my best to adjust to everything and everyone around me but I am held back some by my bipolar ways.