summer 2009

Well I picked up the kids on May 24th and am going crazy. They don't want to listen to me very well. I know that the ex is mean and still beats them. Talks of putting Melvin on probation. And still is an all around asshole but they seem to be taking it out on me. They slave at home all the time and i guess he gives them 20 dollars in food stamps when they earn them, but I have been paying them cash when they go to work and they still act out. They dont want to do anything unless they are getting paid and when thats done they want to watch tv and play video games and not clean up thier own messes at my house. I am over stressed. I work all the time but they dont understand when I am tired. It seems all I do is talk and to a brick wall non the less. Jesse has been helping out quit a bit and i really appreciate it but it not changing the fact they wont listen to either of us pretty much. Selena has been the best, wants to work, make money, do things and the rest just dont care if they do or not. Brianna has got a mouth on her that never stops. Robert and her are at each other al the time. Melvin supposed to be the oldest and acts the youngest doing juvenile pranks and just picking every chance he gets. Always got smeone fighting over something. They dont act at all Like they used to and they used to listen to me. When jesse was gone a few days they listened to me a lot better than now. I dont think they dislike jesse I just dont know what it is. Jesse tries with them and they just dont care. I try and they just dont care. Im going crazy. Cab not the best and not sure if I be able to keep it going. i got my passport today and no matter what jesse believes I really want to go but I just can not afford it. I cleared my accounts just in last two weeks to get kids beds and clothes, and a place large enough to get around each other. I guess it just not ment for me to go. Jesse keep telling me be more positive instead of negative but damn.