Brianna was a flower girl!!!

I did not get to have the opportunity to see brianna first hand as a flower girl but she sure was cute. I chose not to attend the wedding because I now only hav th Jones last name and to me that does not entitle me a right to attend a family wedding or any other event for that matter. I received these photos from my ex father in law the other day and I just had to share them with my faithful readers. Yeah that would be you Tracy!!!! Brianna did a wonderful job.

Missing The Kids

I am so missing having the kids with me. The month of June was great and kind of spoiled me to seeing the kids on a regular basis, now I am just sitting here waiting for August to hurry up. I have two more weeks. I try to call them but cannot get through sometimes which irritates me. So much for not putting restrictions or limitations on my access. The Fair strrts tomorrow so I know the kids will be busy doing that everyday for the next week, I was hoping to reach them beforehand. I do not plan on going to that fair it is very rare of an occasion that I do go. Mainly it is if I have to take someone I take care of. I do not enjoy being in crowds like that and everytime I go I have to see an EX, either mine or Mark's and the dirty looks just get old. If mark's happens to make a comment, there isn't much to stop me from knocking the fat cow on her ass. I have to work overnight shifts on the best days to go anyway so ther is no point in going for something I would not enjoy anyway.

We have finally completed the girl's room. I am so excited for them to see their new room. I hope they will like the changes that we have finally had time to complete. We painted the room antique white (Not the color I had originally chosen but it turned out better than I expected), rebuilt the closet into the wall (which gave the girls more room), and put new carpet in (which was in desperate need of replacing after Brianna got her hands on her sisters nail polish). All in all I am very pleased with the room and am now looking forward to the renovations we have panned for the boys' room. I still can not wait until we add on the three room addition but these changes are good to get out of the way also. When the addition is added, the room the girl's have now will be Brianna's and the boy's room will be Melvin's. I can not wait until they each have their own room so they can stop fighting over belongings and getting into each others stuff.

Melvin- Essay winner for Kirksville's Ray Miller Elemetary School (Fifth Grade)!!!

Melvin was very nervous being a winner of his school's essay contest, because he had to read his essay in front of the community at the Court House. I was very proud of him!!!!!!

Fourth Of July Parade

I went to the fourth of July parade mostly because Melvin was in it since he won the essay contest at his school for the fifth graders. Not a bad parade, it was actually better than ones they have had in the past.

Carson and Barnes Circus

I took the kids to the circus last night, they had a great time. Brianna gave her tickets to ride the camel and then back out....she got scared. Robert rode the camel, elephant, ponies. Selena rode the elephant twice!! Melvin for some reason did not ride on the elephant or the camel. He was more interested in going down the huge air up slide they had there, which I was never able to get a picture of him doing because he is just too fast for me, I think I got a picture of his back when he was walking up the air steps. He went four sessions worth. He really enjoyed the show though and was very ecstatic over the snake; which I was not going near or getting a picture of because I would have had to be near it!!!!not. Selena spent a lot of tickets for the air slide too. Brianna love the big air up thing the kids get to jump in, Robert enjoyed that too until another kid kicked him in the face...he was fine though. I for one had a good time aside from the snake of course. I enjoyed spending my evening with the kids there. They have to go home tomorrow and are very disappointed about it. They want to stay. I WISH. My pictures of the circus were not the greatest but you will be able to view them all on snapfish!!!

Literature.....errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I believe I am going to get my very first failing grade since my college career started three years ago. Yes, it would be in literature, how am I supposed to know what some poet means when he writes a bunch of crap. They should say what they mean and be done with it none of the sonnets and stupid mixed meaning crap.....duh!!! I got my first D on a test yesterday and then a C on the next section of it, talk about suck. I do not get the crap and where and when may I be using this information anyway while I am working in a pharmacy I ask...not gonna that's right. Oh yeah I can see me now speaking a bunch of sonnets to the public now. WHATEVER

I can finally blog again

Well it has been some time since my last entry because I had a log in issue. I am back now and have a lot to say. I have my kids for the summer which has been great. I got them for the whole month of June, of course minus a few days that their father had them. We have been camping, playing at the park, swimming, playing on the slip and slide, riding bikes, fishing, shopping, having Brianna's Birthday party just this past friday, going to summer school, and most of all just being together. I also had my birthday on the fifteenth. Not too many people actually remembered that it was my b-day but no big deal. I am now 28. Although I feel more like 38. It is now the last week of our vacation for june but I will have the kids again for two weeks in August, the kids are in no rush to go home and believe me neither am i to have them go home. It has been great having them with me for a long period of time again. It may not last forever but I have and will continue to be greatful for the time we do get together.

We had Brianna's birthday party last friday as i said and she had a lot of friends show up. We played pin the tail on the donkey, clothespin toss and ring toss for games, they all got to swim and play on the slip and slide. The pinata did not take long at all to be opened. I believe all the kids had a good time. I did order too big of a cake though, so we will be eating it for at least one more day. Brianna was really happy that her friends came, she had three guests that did not arrive though. Her aunt and uncle got stuck in Hannibal, MO and could not make it to the party and one girl from the trailer court was not ableto make it. Brianna kept me up until after 11pm talking about what a good party she had. I was beginning to think she would not go to sleep. She even explained to me that five year olds no longer through baby fits, I told her I would hold it to her.

As for all the kids as a whole they are all doing well. Melvin is going into the fifth grade, he has been going to summer school and enjoying it. He won first place in an essay contest over the fourth of July. He gets to read it to the community on friday at 6p. I am so very proud of him. Selena has not won anything this summer session and is not happy about it one bit, she is now in the third grade. Robert has moved up to first grade and is doing very well. He likes his new teacher this year. Brianna on the other hand has moved on to kindergarden, although she does not enjoy school like the other kids do. She likes to win prizes but that is something they do in summer school not on a regular basis during the school year. She would rather be at home than go to school. She does well though.

As for me and mark, we are doing just fine. getting ready to finally pay off our residence and make plans to buy some land next spring. We are working on getting some remodeling done that has been planned for some time now. I am taking summer classes to speed the process along, I would like to graduate by next spring. I am fully looking forward to having a job in my chosen profession (pharmacy tech). At least when I go to work I will know that I am making the kind of money I am meant to. Which in turn means bigger and better things for my family also.

Well i guess that is all for now will update again soon

Update on my world!!!

Well it has been a long last couple of weeks. Marks brother practically moved in and believe me he was not welcome by me!! he drove me crazy trashing the house and smelling up the place. After three whole weeks he is finally gone. Mark made him go before he really pissed me off. I have been working a lot well more than a lot actually. I pulled 45 extra hours this week and I am really beginning to wear down. I have to go back in here shortly but had to make at least this post since it has been awhile. I have started my online classes, yeah they are convienent but definately hard. I hope to get through them ok. I got my final grades for last semester and got all A's. I was extremely glad that my hard work paid off. I thought for sure I was getting a B in sociology but I was wrong.Sometimes it pays to be wrong. I can not wait for this weekend to be over...I am sooooooo tired. Oh yeah on my last day of winter term classes I got stranded about 35 miles from home because my fuel pump went out of my car. As if I have tie for that problem...NOT!!! I can not afford to fix it right now so i am using mark's truck for work since he isn't working yet. Will be soon it is starting to warm up now. Anyway i do not know how long it will hold but the transmission is going out of it. I tell ya when it rains at my feet it really storms. I am hoping to get another vehicle soon since the car was falling apart anyway, just have to wait until we can afford it though. Hoping soon.

Gone Gone Gone Crazy

Hey all yes I have completely gone crazy or at least that is how I'm feeling. I do not really wish to do anything because every little thing just sets me off inside and I am sure that I should not express myself at this time because it could be bad for my health and everyone else's. I get SO frustrated and I am not even sure why I am frustrated. Talk about confusing to my self!!! I wish I had a space i could go and just lock myself away and be completely alone with no worries and no one telling me to come out of my shell. Cuz damn it i wish to be in a shell. Hell it is the only place I can not get to. Yeah today is valentine's big whoop. We have no money to do anything for each other so it has turned out to be another day on the calender. My good friend Erin finally got her ring from her old man....about time. I am very excited for her that is if I could feel excited but I really feel nothing. I think that is bad when you feel nothing. Good thing no one passed away that I know because I would not feel anything anyway. That must sound horrible but it's how I am right now. oh well it's part of being me Bi Polar and fucked up. I wish I could work inside my mind to change whatever it is that causes this shitty feeling, cuz I would gladly give it to someone else or at least stop it from happening to me.

Busy with Life

Hey all-
it has been a crazy couple of weeks, I have been doing nothing besides work and school. Yeah I already know that is pathetic. But I will ahve a good paycheck coming up in a week and also school will be over for this semester anyway in another week also. then I will be home for school online and lovin every minute of it---I hope!!! I have never done an online class before so lets cross our fingers and hope I do well. I am disappointed with the last tgest I took in sociology and hope to pull my B to an A with the next and final test.. Still crossing fingers and toes on that one.hehe.

Entertianing Myself

Well so much for having to keep the kids busy and active inside the house due to the freezing wind, they have been so busy with themselves that I have gotten bored. They have played video games, watched movies, drew pictures, worked on their model cars, and played dress up all without me. I had the pleasure of cleaning the house for the largest part of the day and then watched a little television. I didn't even have to cook supper because they got to eat out. Well in actually- a good friend was sweet and brought them all McDonald's. They even had a friend over for the night. They are pleased with the day as for me I was basically bored after cleaning- which come on that is not a all together fun activity to begin with anyway.

I just thought this was such a cute picture of my cat hiding behind christmas presents. He was hiding from the dog I am assuming because at that time they were still not getting along. Thank Goodness they are having better luck being being in the same room. Took long enough!

Getting Ready For The Weekend

Well it is kiddie weekend time again, Yes I am excited. I have absolutely no idea what to do this weekend. It is going to be very cold- as in single digits. I am going to have to explain that two of their fish decided to go to fish heaven. I am not sure if the tank is big enough for four fish. Of course mark already made such a comment when I purchased them, and I will not admit it to him for I would never hear the end of it. So I am going to be stuck in the house for two days doing god knows what to keep the kids entertained, or freeze my ass off to go outside and play in the snow or ride bikes. We do not have much snow left- Thank God. Well I will post an update as the weekend progresses

Work Work Work

Yep, that is all I have done all week besides school. Nope has not been fun but hey I will like it when I see my paycheck, or at least It better be a good paycheck. Its that time of year when everyone gets sick and can not go to work. I have been called in for 5 consecutive days in a role. I do enjoy taking care of people but I would also like to get a regular schedule someday in the near future. I do not mind working for others but hey lets face it I like to have the same good paychecks from one pay period to the next.

Freedom to raom the net

Yeah I have just been handed the freedom to surf the net, wear my pajamas to class, and do my homework and tests from the comfort of my home. It really does pay to have a brain. Not that I have all the cells that normal folks have but hey I will brag about what I do got...hehe. It is no contest compared to driving 140 miles per school day, listen to boring lectures, and deal with frustrating professors. Starting this spring I am free of all that... Not to forget the cost of gas to make that drive each day. Big savings!!!!

Just an update

Well the weekend is over and now the kids have gone home. I miss them already and for the present time have many messes left behind in their rooms to keep me busy. I need to go out and look for my second job now that the hip is feeling better. Thank goodness, it took long enough of sitting and laying around to heal. It of course snowed again so i will have to walk very carefully to ensure my happy butt doesn't fall again..hehe Wish me luck on that cuz I always fall on the shit!!! I do wish I could just wait it out inside but the bills will not get paid that we. The semester is almost over at school and soon will be dragging my butt up to Ottumwa for final exams and believe me I am not looking forward to that. I hate to test over the info i have learned which is rather ironic because I have near panic attacks taking the tests thinking AI will of course fail but I always seem to come out with either A's or B's. still can not seem to control the panic though. Hope to get them over quickly.

Disappointed

Well the Ex did not get our daughter signed up for her dance class after all so there isn't a recital to attend and I am not the only one disappointed. Selena was really looking forward to participating and the Ex did not even inform her of his failure to register her for the class. Talk about a bummer!!! But we are enjoying ourselves anyway, playing video games and looking at photo albums of time gone by. Catching up on the past two weeks since our last visit. Selena made me another card this weekend which is becoming a norm for her to do so. I save them all in my keepsake box.

KIDS THIS WEEKEND!!!

Yep, it is that weekend again- full of fun and joy that I will be spending with my kids. Not sure what we plan to do but whatever it is I'm sure it will be fun. Selena has a dance recital today and I know I will be snapping tons of pics. Next time I post I will be sure to add some pics of it for all to see. My little girl has gotten so big in such a short time. I am very excited to see how she reacts to public performances. Not that I have any doubts she will not be fabulous. She loves attention, dancing and singing. She tells people all the time she is going to be a singer like Selena when she gets older. Yeah she was named after a singer and it has stuck in her mind ever since. I sure hope my other kids are good while she performs, I would hate to miss any of it. update next post.

Embrace the Insanity

Embrace the Insanity

My Bestest Best friend Forever and Always
This is the site to my best friend, doesn't she have some of the cutest kids you've ever seen? Of course she does. Keep us posted girl!!!!

First day back on my feet!!!!

Nope wasn't ay fun at all. I have gone to classes- drove all the way to Ottumwa and back, went to the store, and walked around the house as neccessary. it sucked i still hurt and am getting real irritated that it is still bothering me. has caused me to give up the second job i got and now wondering how we are going to make it through until the bad weather passes and mark can get a good job again. For now unemployed and me limp or gimp whichever they both decribe my situation. Sucky....

Fallen update

yeah, I am still in pain. A few painkillers a day has prevented the need to go to the hospital because I know I have not broken anything except my pride. I am still planty soar but getting better. I am walkin around with the assistance of the pain meds I saved from my last hit toward the ground region!!! yeah-sweems to be my specialty. I hope to be mobil soon.

I have Fallen and I can't get up!!!!

Talk about pissed off-- It was no longer than I posted my last blog that I had to get ready to go to work. I start my car and turn to go back inside and oh yeah I fell on my ass!!! Well technically I fell on my hip bone and am now suffering the pain. I had to miss two shifts at work and my classes at school today so far. I have said it once ok maybe ten million times I HATE WINTER!!!!! I just got theses jobs and look what happens if my luck gets any worse this week I am barricading myself inside and not going out until spring. I swear if I didn't have bad luck I'd have no luck.

Snow, Rain and Ice GO AWAY!!

Well all I have seen all weekend is snow, rain or ice...I am getting soo irritated having to start my car 30 minutes before going anywhere, sliding all over the road, slipping around every where I walk. I want it all to just go away. I am not one to favor the winter months, ok I hate them but It would be so much better if it was warm or half ass warm would do. I hate cold weather. I am not one to get sick and thank goodness I haven't had any big spouts of illness..I guess that is the one thing I can be greatful for this winter season but come on enough is enough. It gets to be awful depressing when all it does is look horrible outside and prevent you from getting anything done. I am wishing for an early spring not that my vote counts but god it would be nice to see something besides bad weather. My clients can not enen leave their homes when the weather is like this, talk about suck. It isn't any fun to go clean all day or sit all day. Everyone needs to see the outdoors at least on a regular basis.

Got A Job

Well angie has gone out and gotten herself a job...two actually! It has been tough to get back into the same old routine of waking early everyday for either school or work but I have finally started to adjust.....No small feat! I enjoy taking care of the disabled in their homes, it gives me great satisfaction to see them getting out in the world instead of being hidin from the world. Makes it look promising to a person like me who I am sure they would love to lock up and throw away the key, if I ever go crazy again. Which could happen in 0-60 seconds. One week into the jobs so far.....

Irritated!!!

Well today was a pretty stressful day, I had a huge Science test today. I hope I get a good grade!! I was very angry when I got to school and found out my first class had been cancelled. I had to sit around for two hours and wait for my next class that i had the test in. I had already studied and felt if I looked at my notes one more time they would blurr before my eyes. This is the second time this week that she cancelled without notifying her students... talk about a hag! It wouldn't even be a big deal if i did not have to drive 70 miles to get to school. Duh, more time to sleep in!!!!