Note to self-- If you want it done do it yourself or live my life!!!!

Yeah this Bipolar crap is getting out of control. I wish that it would just go away and I think life could be at least alright, but no it won't and I am going crazy living in not my kinda clean surroundings. I figure if I just get a space of my own to hide if necessary or chill out when necessary I would be fine. Still having that thought just still don't have a space to do either. I always have to be in the mix with everyone because there isn't a place for me to go and be alone. Hide from the mess or relax. I bet there never will be one for me either. Jesse has started doing the demolition phase of his new house about a week or a little more ago. It still is not a big enough place to get me a space or my kids for that matter, and yet he asks me if he gets a room for himself and his guy stuff. HUH that was what was going through my mind like are you crazy I do not get one my kids don't even have one and yet he think he need one. Funny I continue to tell him he got two homes for him and his but still no where for me and mine. It getting really old. He want to make additions onto the pre- existing home if he can purchase the property next to his home, yet the original got to be done first then buy the land and then build. I think Melvin be living in his own place before mom every get a place for him to stay. Maybe he let me live with him...