Is life worth living

I seem to think somewhere along the road that I call my crazy life I lost my way and never really got around to what I am supposed to do with myself. Not too sure some days who I am, not sure some days if I want to even get out of bed for not knowing what the day will bring and whether it will be good or bad, I want to hide from the world a lot of the time yet I have a company in the public eye, Want to just plain give up the air I breathe in exchange for peace- eternal would do me just fine. There are some that view me selfish but those same can not truly understand my despair for life feels sucked out of me and I have been left a shell to function in daily but suffer in at same time. Functioning is a pretend scene because no one wants to see a lost crazy person for who/what she truly is.... nuts, unpredictable, undetermined aside from death, depressed, hopeless, lost, insane, sense of no fear, numb to many feelings, thoughtless, unforgiving, and so much i can not describe because I feel everything and nothing at once. It is overwhelming and hard to deal with. I do not know what to do with myself, I feel like crying most of the time but have to hide that and when i do have space to cry I don't have tears half the time. I'm tired of the sorrow, the sadness, the despair. I want peace. I need peace, I deserve peace. I will get peace if it is the last thing that I do I will make peace possible. Everyone deserves peace and I will get mine. A matter of time....that's all.